Smiling Away... =)

Ha !! It's really nice, I love that feeling !! It's been a long long time, although conversation seems short and normal, but it makes my heart skips like Skippy !! Making me smile throughout the whole short conversation. Contented, seriously... =) Thankiew !!

Just feeling happy, so just wanna blog about it, otherwise it's always a emo entry which not many people like.

Cloud Nine Mood,
Amanda Chua =)

Contradicting...

Oh gosh, i've sucha contradicting thinking, I cant believe it !!! Gosh~~~

1stly, whenever I'm too busy with work, I just feel like some idiot working so hard and receiving nothing in return, in the end I'm feeling depressed and sad about why things/shit happens only to me.

2ndly, whenever I'm too free, I start to think so much. Like how stupid my life is, how stupid I am, overwork but unpaid. Doing so much yet not being appreciated or even recognised. Caring so much for others, using every ways to make everyone around me happy. Congratulating others, feeling happy for others. But thinking back, there is nothing that makes me happy. I mean, yes, I'm happy whenever I see my friends/whoever around me are happy.

I really have to stop thinking sooo much, it's not healthy. But is there a method or something to stop myself from thinking sooo much ? It's seriously wayyy tooo muchhh....

Call me emo kid, but well... i'm just concern about myself, about my future... but for now work is killing me silently, i guess it's way too much for me to handle. Prolly i just need a shoulder to cry on, i need a nice hug, i need a nice holiday, i need some love be it from friends, family, guy, gal, my 2 lovely doggies or whoever.

Alright it's getting late, good nite love...

***When Will I Ever Stand Out, While Every Other Things Look Blurry??***

Deep deep thoughts,

Amanda Chua

Time Well Spent...

Managed to get the Car on Sat night, decided to bring my mum out for a nice dinner. Dempsy a place which Mummy have never been to. I guess we're all grown up, bringing her out for nice food, getting her exposed to a better life with better experience is what I want.

Drove her to Barracks (Western dinner), we're kind sick of Japnese food, not really sick but wants to try something diff. with a nice atmosphere. Asking mum to have red and white wine during the dinner too. I guess it's the kind of dinner we always wanted, however, sadly my dad is always too busy to join us.

Places like Dempsy, Holland V. and somewhere further will only be in our mind if we have car. However, will explore alot more nice places with my baby before I can drive my family out for nice dinner again. I love...

Family Love,
Amanda Chua

Catching Up...

Its nice catching up with P1 & P2 last night, however, I've neglected my other groups of friends. Just cus I'm spending quality time with the gals whom I sort of spend lesser time with as years goes by.

I know my apologies not gonna work, however, I will find ways to make up the "break the promise" me...

Many find that I've grown up quite alot, but they can see and sense that i've been trying too hard and eventually I'll be the one who's gonna be so drained out and breakdown. Time will tell, and I wont regret, cus I treasure every friendship I've made.

Blessed to have all of yoOu,
Amanda Chua