1stly, whenever I'm too busy with work, I just feel like some idiot working so hard and receiving nothing in return, in the end I'm feeling depressed and sad about why things/shit happens only to me.
2ndly, whenever I'm too free, I start to think so much. Like how stupid my life is, how stupid I am, overwork but unpaid. Doing so much yet not being appreciated or even recognised. Caring so much for others, using every ways to make everyone around me happy. Congratulating others, feeling happy for others. But thinking back, there is nothing that makes me happy. I mean, yes, I'm happy whenever I see my friends/whoever around me are happy.
I really have to stop thinking sooo much, it's not healthy. But is there a method or something to stop myself from thinking sooo much ? It's seriously wayyy tooo muchhh....
Call me emo kid, but well... i'm just concern about myself, about my future... but for now work is killing me silently, i guess it's way too much for me to handle. Prolly i just need a shoulder to cry on, i need a nice hug, i need a nice holiday, i need some love be it from friends, family, guy, gal, my 2 lovely doggies or whoever.
Alright it's getting late, good nite love...
***When Will I Ever Stand Out, While Every Other Things Look Blurry??***
Deep deep thoughts,
Amanda Chua
3 comments:
if u allow, my time and everything is free for u.. guess its jus in a female genes that they tend to think alot. do something u like and guess that will relax ur mind alittle..
I m always free to be there for you !! :) Ring me if u need someone to be ard....
Thankiew my dear, I'll ring you often when I have more time for leisure and not so indulged with work ok ?
November !! Cant wait !! We must meet up as much as possible with Ying...
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