WeEkEnds...

Pretty long and tiring week as usual... Lost track of the time i reached home on Fri nite.

Sat woke up early (not for work) but head down to Chinatown to give support for 1 of my darling Ms Suet Yeo, she's taking part in the Miss Earth Singapore. Well i'll say that the competitors this time round are pretty strong, but importantly is that she enjoy the process and with all her dear friends turning up to support her. Guess that's really more than enough... In our heart, Ms Yeo... you're still the prettiest =)

Sat night, i'll say it's a rather nice exposure to the REAL WORLD... Dine with all pretty ladies (Mainly all models (including FHM runner up) + Air Stewardess) and those guys are like Boss of company, Hairstylist & FHM editors. It's my 1st time meeting up with all of them, really really nice exposure, and seriously i Envy all those pretty ladies... But well, it's not easy for me to Blend in, seriously. Dinner at Cafe Iguana was good, many many glasses of Lime Margarita (secrets to nice & smooth margarita) will be the Vodka.
It's so smooth that it's so nice to drink, that you wont realise that the alcohol level were actually quite high.

Went over to Forbidden City, lotsa glasses of Champagne + Vodka again... All i can say is that, expensive liquors kills and deminish all the headaches or hangover. I'm glad i'm given the opportunity to expose to this amazing outing & meeting quite a handful of amazing people. Being invited to the next party, prolly i'll pop by... but extensive involvement will not do good to my health and it's rather risky for me.

Gonna Thank all these amazing people for giving me a chance to truely understand and sees the REAL WORLD.

Anyways reached home feeling drowsy, had not much sleep and woke up early for Ktv session. Been quite sometime since we sing... It's pretty nice trying to adjust the Key, sourcing for songs that really suits us. Initial plan was supposed to go back to work, but after a long discussion and also because i'm feeling rather angry with certain stuff, i've decided not to go back, even though i tht of watching the opening ceremony, which i guess all these reminds me of my track and field days, thinking about that now, it brings back lotsa memories...

Ok i guess i'll stop here... no pics, cause i'm too lazy to post any.

Stubborn,
Amanda Chua

Unhappy...

I am feeling really really really x 100 not ok !!!

I dont know why, but I'm feeling really really really down... and I seriously HATE myself for feeling that way. Because of me feeling Sad, Unhappy, Moody and Frustration... I sort of wanna risk my own life while riding back home just now...
I was riding really recklessly, I needa apologise to my poor baby, I actually vent my anger on him. I was accelerating very hard and fast (if there's pillon behind me, prolly he/she will fly out of my bike without holding me tight, somehow like JetSki).
And lotsa hard braking and sudden braking. Cutting inbetween cars, tailgating behind cars, horn those cars, high beam those cars... if you wanna hate me, curse and swear at me... i dont really care. I'm feeling really really down... I just have the sudden urge to go to east coast but I decided not to, cus i dont have my Mp3 with me...

Arrrggg.... I'm sure it's not due to my lack of sleep... I really dont know why !!! I HATE MYSELF =( I HATE MYSELF BEING SUCHA DEVIL RIDER !!! And in my mind i'm thinking lotsa stuff, i just keep thinking, i can hardly concentrate on the road... it affects me quite alot... Maybe if i leave the office earlier, I might feel better ? I dont know...

And yes, was riding so dangerously just now, i'm thinking... just thinking... if accident were to happen, I think i deserve it, serve me right... just have this mindset and thinking (Choy, ofcourse i dont wan things to happen...)

I'm crazy... seriously i think i am... i am not thinking right, i am not feeling right, i'm not behaving right either... Oh god... Please help me !!! Arrggggg....

I want to be able to sleep well tonight, Insomnia for quite sometime... no more waking up in the middle of the night for me please....

Ok... i hope after a good nite rest tonight... i'll feel better tmr. Tmr is friday... TGIF everybardy...

Moody + Sad + Unhapppy,
Amanda Chua

Random Thoughts...

Hahaha, alright it's rather funny how a person will have lotsa random thoughts in mind and start to blog about random stuff.

Today is a day i really just slack my ass off at home/uncle's house. Which is what i really want, if i were to go out like yesterday, i think i'll feel a little tired.

I love to be random at times, making people's brain work a little and feeling confused like me.

Oh well...

I'm just feeling bored at my uncle's house, glad that i brought my lappy along, otherwise i'll definitely be napping instead.

Evil Laugh,
Amanda Chua

The Answer Is...

Guess I have the answer already...

Anyways this particular song had been lingering in my mind these few days. I love this song, and I guess this song brings back lotsa memories... so much that it's hard for me to handle as well.

It's none other than K-C & Jojo's All My Life...

Said I promised to never fall in love with a stranger,
You're all I'm thinking of I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,
I Really Love You !

All my life, I pray for someone like you,
I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I pray for someone like you I
hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me

You're all that I've ever known, your smile on your face, all I see is a glow,
You turned my life around, You picked me up when I was down,
You're all that I've ever known, when you smile your face glows,
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I've ever known, when you smile your face glows,
You picked me up when I was down and I hope that you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too

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" You're All That I Ever Wanted, And For You The Song I Sing... "

Confused + Tiring...

Last week wasnt a good week for me, excluding the weekends which i had fun.

I'm confused about a few stuff actually, which makes me unable to sleep for the past week. I need someone to talk to, but seems like nobody will really understand my situation. Therefore I can only keep it to myself, and suffer...
Shared it with my family though, but well...

For a few nights, I can wake up in the middle of the night suddenly, and cant get back to sleep after that, then I'll start to visualise the whole scenario. Otherwise I'm so so so tired after i reached home from work, I tht I might have a good nite sleep, in the end I'll be tossing and turning in bed, poundering again before I fall deep asleep.

How how how how how ??? I'm running out of Time, I'm running out of Energy, I'm running out of Passion...

Maybe I should start with a little prayer everynite before I sleep ?

Maybe I should just let myself suffer... in a good way, good perspective ?

I just seriously need some listening ears and advise... but... I always like to tell others, just follow your heart. But now I'm confused, and my heart aint opening a pathway for me to head on to.

Alright... I cant go on... I'm very very very confused still...

Confusion,
Amanda Chua

No Updates....

I'm too busy, I've got no time to update. But I'll try to squeeze in a little bit of time to update.

Meanwhile, take care everybody and enjoy !!

Anyways I love my weekends ! Tiring but Fun =)

Happy,
Amanda Chua

Tiring Week = Mentally Drained...

I'm Feeling So Tired !!!

Been working and reaching home late the whole of this week. Let me update on my reaching home timing:

Mon : Work & Reached home at abt 12.15am.
Tue : Work & Reached home at abt 12.30am.
Wed : Went for Dinner and Party @ Double O after work at 9.00pm, Reached home from Party at abt 4.00am.
Thur: Work & Reached home at abt 10.30pm. (Cus i'm too shagged out with jus 2 hrs of slp)
Fri : Work & Reached home at abt 11.30pm.

When u're going out to play & enjoy u wont feel tired. But when u're working, u'll be mentally drained & seriously feel tired.

Anyways 1st thing, i wanna apologise to Suet & Andrew, cus was supposed to go for Andrew's birthday celebration on Thurs, but i ended work late, & the day before went Double O to celebrate Mr. Fandi's bday & reached hm at 4am.

Had a mere 2 hrs slp, work up & head to work. Had a terrible headache, pop a panadol & hahah the morning timing i still hv this drowsy feeling, like i'm seriously floating. So i intend to give the celebration a missed... Sorry~~

Anyways lotsa birthday baby tmr (070609):-

1. My Beloved (Daddy)
2. One of My Favourite Sec Sch Teacher (Ms Phang)
3. The Ex Colleague I Miss (Jess Lee)
4. My uncle (Uncle Winston)

Happy Birthday to ALL !!! Though already had celebration for my daddy today =P

Yst felt abit Feverish at work, but i feel quite alright, but today my Sore Throat got worst... and I hope it's not inflammation, cus it's really Hell painful !!

I feel like investing some amt to deco my bike, changed those ugly parts away n beautify it. But i feel like spending money to buy stuff i like too... And i needa save up to go overseas again at end year... How how how ??? Money so NOT enough can ??

Anyway i'm really really really tired, so not enough sleep. And finally i bothered to head down to the bike shop today to change my Engine Oil... Next time round will be doing abit of servicing already. =)

Take care people... i'll update with a little bit of photos... too many photos yet to be uploading to FB.

Shagged Out,
Amanda Chua